press START

press start to what?

start for all sorts of planning. initially it all started when his mother slipped the beautiful cincin merisik. Funny but true, neither me nor his mother or the people around us knew which finger to put (left or right,doh, memang la saye tau jari manis takkan jari hantu kot kan?). She tried on the right but mase beli tu tried and tested on the left one so tersekat pulakk.... Terpaksa la his mother tuka pulak ke jari tangan kanan.

Then came the berita that majlis pertunangan, insyaAllah akan berlangsung raya kedua. RAYA KEDUA?????? alahai, time2 tu jugak la dipilih mama sayangku. it might be my last raya as anak dara, time raya kedua la pulak nak tunang. Jiwa memberontak cos perasaan nak kutip duit raye tu sebenarnye ade lagi. tapi takde la ditunjukkan sangat. cover ayu sket la kan?

tapi raya kedua ni ada ke...
orang nak cater?
orang nak pasang canopy?
orang nak buat pelamin?
orang nak buat semua laaaa...

*SIGH*

so pagi tadi dalam demam tak demam ni, lepas hantar adik2 skolah, lepas pegi pasar beli barang (nak masak assam pedas ikan pari sebab kekasehati nak datang) singgah la skejap dekat rumah mama zizah. Mama zizah is one of the caterers that i've no complaints. sedap gile! especially kalau nak order makanan ala2 kampung ni. sedap gile weih..... plus raya kedua, mesti orang tak expect lemang ketupat kan? orang nak makan yang best2. super yummy! tapi kan mama zizah plak nak KIV cos raya kedua. WHY mama WHY? Knape la mamaku sayang pilih tarikh 11sept tu? raya kedua tu kan , possible tapi susah sikit?

Kepala pun dah naik pening pikir, tadi hal caterer ni hal pelamin pulak. Mini pelamin yang mama idamkan sangat utk her first wedding. Sigh. Ada ke? Bila nak yang cantek2 mcm Que Ariffin tu, die pulak quote sampai rm6k (include delivery KL-Penang, sebab nak public holiday sume siap) so cmane ni? nak buat sendiri, pandai ke bertukang berandam bagai cik dura?

*SIGH*

1. pelamin
2. hantaran
3. caterer
4. canopy
5. baju

mampukah aku????

taking a second

it has been a good while since i was gone, busy with god knows. but apart from that a lot has happened and evolved and developed.

what a fast moving world we all live in? sometimes i wish we could all take a long pause and breathe in slowly. try sitting at a cafe and watch people on the move, rushing. i've seen it and been one of those people on the go. it's as if the older the planet is, the faster it moves. well, that's life in general.

so,what have i done for the last (almost) 2 months?

*thinking*

moving around. travelling. and again on the go.

*sigh*

let me take a breather and reminisce of happenings, good and bad. just hang on a bit.

should i?

Should i be ego when i should be compromising?
Should i smile when i should be crying?

Should i give up when i should give in?
Should i let fate decide for me when I've faith in it?

Should i pretend when all i am is sincere?
Should i return when i should just keep it?

Should i be patient when the clock is ticking?
Should i give time when life's too short to be miserable?

Should i hate when i should love?
Should i be honest when truth really hurts?

Should i ignore you when you know i can't?
Should i leave you when you need me?

Should it be later when its all too soon?
Should i listen to you when i should be me?

Should i ignore when it all feels right?
Should i be nice when you know I'm selfish?

Should i let go when i should hold on tighter?
Should i let others decide when i know what i want?

Should i lie when the cards are laid?
Should i be someone else when I'm myself?

I don't know the answers to all these. But it got me thinking.
I don't know if anyone ever knows whats right and whats wrong to do.
I don't know if everybody knows cos nobody really knows.

is love alive?

i read this in Dirah's blog and it got to me. Is LOVE really alive?

it scares me sometimes to even think of it?

i've heard someone saying that love fades (really?OMG!), but isn't there a way to un-fade it? to keep the fire, the spark burning? to keep it lasting? is there any elixir ? any way at all?

but how true is so if we haven't tried our very best?

sometimes out of ego and selfishness, we ignore all this in hope of the best (or worst).

sometimes we fear the worst and push aside the good. i've seen that all, i've even experienced it. maybe i'm even doing it.

fear of rejection, fear of losing, fear of being unloved, fear of depression, fear of heartbroken, fear of all things possible. don't we all have it? i know we should all manage it, but please, don't tell me when you're happily laughing at his jokes, looking into his eyes, and the feeling's all right, there was a moment you'd think if any of this could be forever and suddenly poof! its gone.

i'm as scared as you are. i'm scared of making the same mistakes, having cried endless nights, having puffy eyes for weeks, again and again and again. i know you don't want it either. but if fear is tearing us apart when you know deep down in your heart and soul that we've always loved each other,and we will always be, then what's the point of letting fear take us down?

but it can't be worked alone does it? i mean all these bullscrap?

maybe all we need is to lower down our ego in sync with the loved one and remind ourselves of how we fell in love, once upon a time and how we've always loved and needed each other, the good and happy times, the bad ones we've overcome. or perhaps since the day u were born, when all this started (i'm not particularly referring to only bf-gf love but all sorts). shouldn't we be doing that?

how did the couples whom lasted forever? the ones who lasted over 20-30 years? tell me. someone. please

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Sesak nafas.

Gusi bengkak.

Sore throat and temperature.

Missing someone badly.

Could all this be so bad? Am i asking for too much? or i'm just plain paranoid? Is this a problem or a hiccup? Should i be calm? Should i worry much? Is he insecured or are we both? What is all this? How do i overcome it? Are we rushing? Am i pushy? Do i not love you enough? What is all this? What have we become? Overly-protective?

Jom jemaah and mintak petunjuk, nak tak?

Here's the best part which touched me when i watched the movie up. So sweet. It shows the days they had together from they were married till they have lost one another. omygoodness. if it doesnt move you, i dont know what u're made of

Who will i fall for?

hmm....its so cliche when i took a quiz on FB and i dont knw how far its true and real but it just surprised me. Here's the prediction...

Adura took Who will you fall for?
Someone you've been with beforeYou have been with this man/woman one time or another. Your relationship fell a part or you just had a falling out. It wasnt a bad break-up. You guys will meet up again and fall madly in love with each other once more, but with better results.

25 tahun sudah... (part kedua)

It was 27th sept. 2009 which marked me being a year older, wiser, maybe, maybe not. But it's supposed to be my day. so here are a few great things that happened. Let's start from early morning alright, the moment i woke up.

0800

I woke up beside my love,....... the blurblur doll, i got as a pressie (haaa...mesti uolls ingat i woke up beside ehem2 tau. tak baik pikir bukan2 tauuuu, kitorg kawan jeee...!) in my pretty pink pyjama and i woke up with a smile. What a day to start :) and there it is tonnes of SMS-es and i love the one from Mama. She was so sweet (Ma, I LOVE U!).

The first thing that got to my mind was to call Mr.Mystery so he could fetch me for breakfast. We planned on having breakfast with his family. But due to over-exhaustion, (adekah perkataan sedemikian? any word as such?) i bet no one would be awake so early to prepare breakfast. And so he came and we bought Roti Canai and Nasi Lemak, the proud staple breakfast of Malaysians somewhere around TTDI Jaya. Filling and fattening, i must say.

As we had breakfast together, my first wish for the day was:
I wish i had many,many more happy and joyful mornings amongst loved ones; family and (insyaAllah) future family. Aminnnnn!

1200

By noon, everyone had their water bottle filled with Ribena and "iced water with lots of ice cubes please *****," for me, as i bat my long curly eyelashes (over tau!) to tapau us for the long journey back from KL-Melaka-Penang. Wait! "Nak jalan round KL pun kene tapau ke akak*?"(Akak bukan nama sebenar) but it's a good thing anyways, cos takde la huru-hara sekampung if you happen to get stuck in the ever-famous KL massive traffic jams withnothing to eat or drink and worst still if you need to use the ladies. Seksa gila i tell you! Tahan la sampai nampak signboard petrol station.

So back to the story, when i meant US, i was referring to duhh! (do i have to repeat it again?) Mr Mystery was also going back to Penang, one reason was to accompany me cos i had to drive alone, but since when I'm so dependent? Hmm, give me a break! Kadang-kadang nak jugak bermanja and have someone to be in-charge and to get some TLC (tender,loving,care) , right?After all today's my day as quoted by Mr Mystery.

Eventually, our plan got changed as i overheard the conversation between them sisters about going to Pavillion. I was not eavesdropping or pasang telinga and such tapi ape lagi nyah tak tahan telinga mendengar, harus pergi okayy! And again while bating my eyelashes i asked "We're not rushing kan,*****?" and i got a big smile and a big YES! Woohoo!

my 2nd wish for the day:
He's just so sweet today i hope he's sweet everyday! *di sini saya rumuskan sahaja serta diselitkan beberapa lagi wish berkenaan Mr Mystery yang mungkin tidak wajib dipertontonkan. Terima Kasih*


1600

We were still in Pavillion after our superbly-licious lunch at the Teppanyaki joint at the Basement Food Court (Ade ke food court lain?). It seemed like everything was going against me, including the chef. I was the last to get my Salmon Teppanyaki and my taugeh and sayur was so sikit compared to my sis and Mr Mystery's. No fair! I know i eat lesser than them even i'm BIGGER than them (ye, saya mengaku di sini I'm bigger :) but that does not mean you should be discriminating me and join the forces so i should diet you know?!

And so, after lunch and not much touring around or window shopping and such as i find it so blah and un-interesting perhaps i had the "jewel" in my hand (definitely not a diamond,engagement ring lah) who means more than anything as what Pavillion has to offer or perhaps i just had to stick to my budget and purchase things i NEED instead of those I WANT (another resolution in being a year wiser). OMG, did i really said it out loud? Shopping and Mr Mystery? Really? Macam dalam movie Shopaholic Diaries plak when all the patung-patung mannequins were talking to her and seducing her to buy, buy and buy!

Papa called me at about 1630, at first i "merajuk" cos Pa did not call or SMS-ed and wished for my birthday. Perhaps he forgotten, but he didn't cos Papa called me on my birth time. How sweet is that? *wiping a tear*

my 3rd wish for the day: "you're not a diamond in my heart, because diamonds make me happy for less than 24hours. You're much better than that!" Adura's quote

1800

At this point of day, i was contented with every second i had, even when not all my family was around somehow i was still among my family, my sister. I, later, visited or more like pergi Beraya at my Aunty Nor's house located in Desa Pinggiran Putra, Kajang/Putrajaya. All these while, whenever i feel like going there, i would always lose my way even with the help of a GPS (or perhaps i didn't read it right?). Don't blame me for being bad with directions, i'm not but Putrajaya is just not my forte. So this time, i called my Aunty Nor to fetch us and guide us the way from the Putrajaya International Convention Centre (PICC) or "cowboy hat" as what my niece Anis would call it. InsyaAllah i'll have no trouble going there again since Mr Mystery seemed to concentrate, study, and copy+save the way there into his "memory card". Lucky me!

Actually we went there not to only visit my family but as well as to welcome our new family member Mr Muaz Azwan who was born on the 1st Syawal, 20th September 2009. Like the Malay saying "sambil menyelam, minum air". Did i get that right? Hopefully :) I got him a bag full of blue goodies, was excited to give it to him as i thought its one of my personal favourite baby gifts (mind the self-perasanness). It was a blue baby bag with a baby whale and in it was full of baby goodies. I'm so used to buying pink stuffs this year and for a change i had to buy a blur gift and boy i was excited!

Holding Lil Muaz in my arms, made me think and wonder when will i be holding my own baby instead of cousins and friends? *sigh* and i bet i was not the only one thinking as such. Well, enough of the not-so-sad story, it's supposed to be a happy entry people!

Bak kata orang melayu or simpulan bahasa "langkah kanan" or fortunate, i was, as Aunty Nor prepared such an array of food. It seemed to me like a party. Laksa, kuih raya, cakes and cupcakes, i just loved them all. Ishbir just enchants me when he sang me three rounds of the Birthday song with some extra hip shaking. It was all good.

But we had to go so soon since it was running late and "someone" had been so mind-boggling about going back to Malacca. Her initial plan was to return to Malacca with her friends and eventually her friend wanted to return the next day. And the notification came in so late in the evening i felt like a time bomb since I've well-planned my journey earlier on. Since it was a joyful day to be ruined by some mishaps, being the ever-so-loving sister, somehow made sure she returned to campus safely.

My 4th wish for the day:
"God give me patience and perseverance. Give me love, hope and faith. Give me all the good deeds and traits i should and make me in being a better Muslim, daughter, sister, friend, insyaAllah wife and mother. Dan semoga aku bertemu jodoh yang beriman dan bertanggungjawab sebagai seorang Muslim serta dikekalkan bersamanya dunia dan akhirat kelak. Amin".

2100

This time of day, we just left UiTM Lendu, Malacca and heading back north. Problem was, it's 9pm and my tummy is grumbling and i bet the person behind the wheel is too. So we need to stop somewhere, grab a quick bite then go. I need to reach home soon as i need to be with my family on my birthday, too, you know? :) Can we make it on time? Will they still be awake? Let's just hope so, ok?

Throughout the long journey, apart from our passion for speed, it was all fun and full of singing and laughter. We were practically helping each other from sleeping and snoring. Perhaps, exhausted after a whole long day and lack of sleep throughout the weekend (refer 0800). Spare the details, i was just so happy. Happy to know that i had someone who celebrated with me for almost 24hours on my birthday. What better gift would i ask for?

My 5th wish for the day:
"It feels good to have meals with you. I wish i could have breakfast lunch and dinner with you everyday even if i was not the one preparing it myself. And God, make me a less "super pemalas" person so i could watch and learn how to cook and prepare food for my loved ones. Amin"


28th Sept 2009

0130

We drove across the Penang bridge, and reached home safely, finally. Exhausted and sleepy we were and sad to be apart. But, i was still smiling. Because, i'm going home to my family whom i'm hoping would be still awake and the fact that i had 3 more days extra to spend with Mr Mystey. A week with him, seriously is the longest duration i'd be with him ever, to date (now i'm telling you how much i hate Long Distance R'ship).

When i reached home, my parents were still awake and i had a very big smile on my face. I just felt so lucky. What better gift would i need for my birthday?

My last birthday wish:
None. All i could utter was "Alhamdullilah". I just felt blissed amongst my sayangnesses, so people, please don't pop that bubble now.

Eiffel im in love *part trois*

22nd July 2009

The next day started out so lousily as my topup was out. Here my head was practically screaming "I wanna go home now!" because calls were much cheaper,but whatever, i'll have to bear with it for the next 12 days. *sigh* Thankfully lil Miss ET loaned her phone to still keep me connected. Hence, pursuing our tour of the French land.

Then again it was super sunny and i was dressed lightly compared to yesterday. I just could not bear the heat. And breakfast was super yummy too. Thank you my French mama. She made the best hot choc and i had scramble eggs and croissant with peach jam and cherry yogurt. Need energy to keep me going for the whole day since food don't go cheap there, thus i might as well stuff myself where there's limitless food at the buffet table right?

the honeymooners

We first went to Musee de lourve (pronounced as musi de loo). Hehe, funny kan? Cos the train station stopped at Palais Royale Musee de Lourve and apparently Et said, Kelantanese would be the one who'd pronounce it perfectly. Here, the museum stores the great paintings of Monalisa and its bad to admit that i could not care less about it. It's just a painting. Perhaps, i would be back to stand in the line and get my pretty-self in the museum and really appreciate the painting and other treasures there.

cafe marly at musee de lourve

However, i did not waste any time there since the scenery, the people was just too beautiful for the day and it was really perfect to drink a cup of lemonade instead of a hot chamomile tea with honey (yours truly needed a hot drink since she was not feeling well) suggested by our good-looking waiter, Pierre.

don't you girls agree with pierre?

After a while, Sayangness and ET marched to Champs-Elysees where there'll be the Arc d Triomphe. It was so exciting since the roads were full of boutique and designer labels, whatever you need. And since my dear friend was tired walking in her oxford heels, she needed a gladi flats badly, urgently!

We both dined at Monte Cristo Cafe which took us an hour to get our meal. Perut dah berjoget berzapin baru nak sampai but thankfully the oh-so-sweet-with-chic-name-i-forgot ice cream came first, so tak sempat lah the both of us nak mengamuk di tempat kejadian.

my goyfy et

I was in search of souvenirs and knowing myself i would not buy a little as most of it comes in bulks. Thus, Et said the best place to shop for souvenirs is at Rambuteau (pronounced as Rambuto, i think :) It was heaven! From postcards to t-shirts to fridge magnets to keychains, this place has it all cheap and i mean it!

And here Et was so looking forward to have KFC and i'm like WTH since i came all the way from Malaysia to have KFC. But i don't complain since it was all good. We tapau-ed the KFC and had our good time eating it in our room with the magnificent view. Full tummy, sleepy eyes, tired feet and a great bed.

Goodnight, ET! *kishkish*

Ramadhan al Mubarak

The long awaited month by all Muslims starts tomorrow 22nd of Augusts 2009. It seems so fast for a year to pass by.

Therefore here i am, wishing all friends and family SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN AL_MUBARAK!

The month full of baraqah and provides all good, overflows with dignity, embellished with all obedience and the month where Muslims develop themselves in search of Taqwa. InsyaAllah.

Personally, i love the month of Ramadhan because:

1. Fasting makes us closer to Allah swt: fasting, praying, reciting the holy al-Quran,and zikir. Priceless.

2. There'll be many,many Muslims, men and women, young and old would performing Tarawikh at Masjids or Suraus. A sight that is priceless.

3. Families and friends gather and buka puasa together. You hardly get that everyday, at least it's me. Priceless

4. Fasting itself is an agent to detoxify our body. No need extra charges. No need pills or detoxifying teas and what nots.

and lastly fasting makes me feel good about myself,being closer to Allah and being a better Muslim.

Again, i wish all Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan!

Eiffel, im in love *part deux*

After some cold shower and mesmerizing done through our window pane, we finally set foot on the roads of Paris. Earlier on we had purchase the 2days tickets from Metro which costs around EU18. Well, since we’ll be moving around with it, why not? Besides, it is said to be much cheaper and convenient, I suppose. But the ticket is just so small that I think it is so much advisable to let ET hold it for me, just in case I lose it. From La Tour Mauborg to Eiffel Tower is just 1 station away (Note: Trocadero: Line 6).

At that particular moment, I was actually not feeling good. My head was practically spinning, I was coughing and had a runny nose and my temperature was rather high. InsyaAllah it’s not the infamous H1N1 (Did I mention I had the influenza jab days earlier for precautions?) However, all these did not stop me from having fun, especially our Lil Miss ET was just ignorant of my sickness (She loves me, that’s why she keeps on reminding me on my medications like a mommy. Love u, Goyfie).

Before getting ourselves to the tower, we were in need of the delicious strawberry slush to cool our throats (Sorry Mr Throat) and went on a ride on a beautiful carousel joined by a dozen of kids. Yes, the little girl in me was finally unleashed!

Eiffel Tower, believe it or not, despite the heat and sickness, my mouth was wide open to stand before one of the 7 wonders. Am I dreaming? Am I really here? Et, please pinch me slowly (slapping is too harsh!) Inside, I wish he was here too. To witness and to be with me at this land of romance as well as to be my personal photographer (ET, no offence we were the greatest couple in Paris then, kaann?).

Everything seemed beautiful, and surreal. To get to the top of the tower, one would have to purchase a ticket and after over an hour, we finally got ourselves a ticket with discount for youths below 25 years old. How cool is that? So basically it was selling for EU9.90 for the elevator entrance tickets to the top floor. So if ever I’d want to go again for a tour or honeymoon whatever, I’ll have to pay EU13. *sigh*

[For more info on the Eiffel Tower Visitors Guide click on http://goparis.about.com/od/parismonuments/p/Eiffel_Tower.htm]

When we reached the top floor, the view was super amazing. Enchanted by the view of Paris and tired I was to have stand and lined up for hours from the ticket purchasing to elevator waiting. But it did not keep me from being thankful to have been there. We got ourselves a salad and cheese baguette, cupcakes and soft drinks and let the moment mesmerize us. For once, I felt better, no runny nose, no cough, no fever. Perfect!

As we went down Eiffel Tower, it hit me how sad it will be to leave but the trip must go on. We headed to Hard Rock Cafe Paris (Note: Richelieu Drouot) for some dinner and souvenirs and believe it or not, the only thing we could have was the Classic Nachos, minus Chili. Yummy still. Still we had fun, the people, the music and David our waiter. Super friendly and so cute (Mira, I know you like him so if you happen to go there, tell him I said Hi!)

So tired we were, we headed back to get some rest before a long day ahead tomorrow.
Bonne nuit, Adura!

Eiffel, im in love *part un*

21st july 2009

I watched the sun coming out early that morning, jet lagged or excited or whatever you might call it, i had it. I could hardly get some shut eyes probably it was too cold or perhaps because i had no phone to call my loved ones in Malaysia *sigh* I killed the time walking to and fro Daing's cosy apartment, waiting for 0645 as planned, to get to St Pancras International where i was supposed to get myself on the Eurostar and travel for 2 hours to Paris.

The alarm went on at 0630 and there i was with the 2 boys, Daing and Per (Cheh was still in he dreams therefore none of us wanted to interfere that, sweet dreams Cheh) pushing my luggage across the town from Liverpool St to get to the train station. I was practically enchanted by the station itself. Culture shock to see how different it is than my home country (Malaysia i love you), probably the cafes and florist won my heart.

After i got my ticket from the machine which was super-easy to use (enter the online ticket's number and your credit card and voila!), we went and get ourselves food to warm the tummy. And there it striked me that i'll have to be a vegetarian or a fish-arian for as long as I'm on this trip. Believe me, there are tonnes of super-delicious sandwiches at Pret A Manger lined up with bacon and hams and fresh salads, but i won't be deceived, therefore i settled for and egg sandwich and a cup of Hot Mocha. Burp! That'll be enough to last till Paris, i hope.

As i was chatting away with the two lads, i was also praying inside, hoping that any telecommunication store would open soon for me to get my hands on a SIMpack. I am in need of a phone, badly! And there it was a Vodaphone store, just switching on the lights across the cafe. OMG!!! Thank you.. I got myself a SIMpack for GBP5 with GBP20 topup. Super expensive. That's a good RM110 but since i need it badly, i got it anyways. Thanks to Lisa the Vodaphone lady who was so attentive and actually informed me that international roaming fees are free for summer and that to make calls to Malaysia is way cheaper like 20p/per minute (RM1.17). Mahal laa!!! Whatever it is, Lisa you were my lifesaver.

So i got on the Eurostar and tried to get some sleep but before that, i need to make a phone call. I was happiest to hear voices, again. Personally, Eurostar is such a convenient way of travelling. Cheap, maybe. But the seats are like the ones you can get on AirAsia. Comfy, it is. My heart was practically flipping over and over again, excited to get my feet on Paris and to finally meet my Goyfie, ET. It's been years, 2 years?

ET had actually reach Paris earlier than me. So we agreed to meet at the train station Paris Nord as i was not familiar with places there. Unlike her, this is her third trip there (Correction: second time). When i actually arrived, i was practically sweating. Why did i even wore a thick top? Because London was super cold but Paris was warmer? Duhh... how would i know about the weather, right? Tu la tak check weather forecast kaaannn? I'm the type that couldn't be bothered about the weather, okay.

The sight of ET made me pull my luggage faster. I just felt like jumping on her but since, i think, I'm slightly heavier than her, i didn't. Let's just save it for Mr Mystery. I hugged and kissed her and felt never wanting to let her go, seriously. I missed her a lot. A lot! The people around were looking, but who cares, right? So what if i love my best friend? Jealous la tuuu... The 2 girls then marched to the nearest Metro Station to get ourselves to La Tour Mauborg where it is supposed to be the nearest Metro to our hotel.

It was a thrill to be in Paris with ET, perhaps the first trip with her alone. But i know, we'll have tonnes of fun. As we reached our destination, to get to the hotel was a 10minutes walk. Walking with luggages, doesn't sound chic but whatevs, we're tourists. As we approached Le Jardin D'Eiffel, we were told by the receptionist that our room would be ready in an hour. Perfect! We need foooodd and gues where did we go for a bite? Starbucks! *sigh*

When we actually got our room, believe it or not, i felt like we're on a honeymoon, our windows had the most amazing view, the Eiffel Tower. Let me be enchanted for a while, and I'll continue with my trip.

Bonjour Adura!!!!

LOVE is more than just a 4 letter word

A few days back as i was blog-hopping to my dearest friend Dirah's page, i was hooked with one piece she did about her love life (i love practically anything she blogs, yes Dirah, u are a great writer and i'm inspired. Remember our English classes together?) and smiled to myself knowing she was happy with herself in her own skin :) How lucky of her? Will i be lucky like her or anyone else?

Then, i kept questioning myself, what is love, actually? And started Google-ing, searching for answers. Asking myself whether have i ACTUALLY been in love, AM i in love, did he love me, all sorts of questions? So here I've actually gathered what i needed to know, what i should know and what you need to know as well.

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences associated to a sense of strong affection and attachment. The word love can be referred to a array of diverse feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that shoe") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my boyfriend"). This variety of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even contrasted to other emotional states.


Love is an exceptionally powerful emotion; it can be irresistible and people are often bound to pursue their love interests. Love is a major theme in literature, poetry, and film.
As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, indescribable feeling of affectionately caring for another person. Even this inadequate conception of love, however, includes a wealth of various feelings, from the avid desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love to the profound oneness or devotion of religion love.


So enough about the meanings and whatever. But how do you define love?

Some say it's mysterious, magical, complex, difficult, imaginary, thought-provoking, inspirational, intuitional, joyous, immeasurable, ecstasy, and indefinable. Perhaps. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13:5-7


Another is by Paramahansa Yogananda: "To describe love is very difficult, for the same reason that words cannot fully describe the flavor of an orange. You have to taste the fruit to know its flavor. So with love."


Love itself is a universal experience. Yet, every individual occurrence - while perhaps bound by a common thread - seems absolutely unique. Love is what love is! To everyone it expresses itself differently.

Love is the answer to "all" questions! It is important to stand in Love, not fall into it.
Love is waking up to find the object of your affection in the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder.

Could it be that Love is a story that can never be fully expressed? Love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly. - Sam Keen

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none. William Shakespeare

Love is a bond or connection between two people that results in trust, intimacy, and an interdependence that enhances both partners. Love is the ability and willingness to allow those you care for to be what they choose for themselves, without any insistence that they satisfy you. - Leo Buscaglia


Love is friendship set on fire. - Jeremy Taylor

If you would be loved, love and be lovable. - Benjamin Franklin

When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't Love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still Love you, they Love you even more. - Matthew - age 7

Logic says everything in this world has a cause and an effect. True Love is the only feeling which is its own cause and its own effect. It is something illogical and yet above all logic. I Love her because I Love her, and I Love her so I Love her. - Prateek Kumar Singh

Love is comforting someone in need of Love and having them know that somebody cares.
Love is looking past imperfections in your partner and seeing the beautiful person inside. True love seeks the happiness and well being of your partner. Love expresses itself in the mutual respect you demonstrate to your partner.

Guys, this one is for you! - Love is letting your partner have the TV remote for 30 days!

Love must be experienced. Its meaning is infinite and can never be totally defined.

The opposite of Love is fear. Think about it.

There is no fear in Love; but perfect love casts out fear.

Allah is love.

Love is loving someone without expecting anything in return; no judgments, no restrictions; no limitations; no expectations!

True Love is the nature of bliss.

Love is expressed when you are being someone who loves someone for who they are, not who you think they should be.

Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and taking equal responsibility for the results.

Love seeks no cause beyond itself and no fruit; it is its own fruit, its own enjoyment. I love because I love; I love in order that I may love. - St. Bernard 1090-1153, French Theologian and Reformer

Teach only Love for that is what you are. - A Course In Miracles
Love is a decision.

If you want Love, you must first Love. Love begets Love. You cannot deliver from an empty wagon. You must first learn to Love yourself before you can give Love.

"If you Loved me, you would. . ." Not! Love is not manipulative. It must never be used to get others to do what you want. When you Love someone you never ask them to sacrifice a part of themselves in the name of Love. This form of manipulation contaminates our Love for another.

Can't Buy Me Love! - The Beatles

Love is to like with a great intensity.True love has a foundation of integrity, respect, faith and trust. Love is the force that brings about unity and harmony.

Celebrate Love! - Larry James

Although love is at the root of our basic nature, Love for another human being must be cultivated. It takes time for Love to mature.

Is your love free and unconditional, or is it mixed with various needs, conditions and demands from your partner?

Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and take equal responsibility for the results. The road to self-discovery is paved with Love. Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it. - Martin Luther King, Jr.

Love has no meaning other than the meaning "we" give it. Perhaps. . . Love just Is. While in its allness and in its nothingness, all we need to do is simply let it Be.

To demonstrate Love. . . say, "I Love you" - outloud - at least once each day to someone you love. There is magic in these three little words. Saying "I love you" is the most beautiful gift you can give to your partner. These words are the most treasured a person can hear.

So here i am telling you that I love you. Yeah! YOU! You know who you are. I know you're going to miss my absence, my calls, my voice (pardon my high self-esteem) but i just want you to know that i love you.

BADpacker

I've actually finished packing my stuffs to bring for my long trip at 2330 on thursday night. i should've got it done way earlier like Mr M said(in short for Mr Mystery) but being typical me, i would just "save the best for last".

Baju, check.
Toilettries,check.
Makeups, check.
Medicines and such, check.
Telekung, check.
PAssports n all, check.
Mr Mystery, .... nil

A lot of stuff were thrown into my luggage, almost the whole wardrobe. Well, that's if you consider 2weeks holiday is long bacause i need a lot so i wont buy much but knowing myself, i doubt that'll ever happen. What's important is i'm psyched for the vacation but at the same time, to be travelling alone, i should be prepared for a lot of situations. Let Allah lead my way and protect me from all harm. InsyaAllah.

Another reason to be excited about is that, on Saturday, i'll be amongst many Man.U fans to spectate the game with Malaysian FC. I just can't wait. However, being brokenhearted given CR7 actually went for another club (Real Madrid that is) and the whole point of going for the game was to actually brush shoulders with him was just a girl's dream. And that dream happened to be mine. But the problem lies in figuring out what to wear for the game. Jeans and Tee? Summer dress? i just dont know. It's not like you go for a football match to watch Man U's game everyday, y'know.

Well i guess i better stop before it goes on and on, endless. Nonetheless i need to get a very good rest as well as to avoid having eye bags. Nooooo...!

Sleep tight, sweat dreams my friends. :)

LOVE is more than a 4 letter word

A few days back as i was blog-hopping to my dearest friend Dirah's page, i was hooked with one piece she did about her love life (i love practically anything she blogs, yes Dirah, u are a great writer and i'm inspired. Remember our English classes together?) and smiled to myself knowing she was happy with herself in her own skin :) How lucky of her? Will i be lucky like her or anyone else?

Then, i kept questioning myself, what is love, actually? And started Google-ing, searching for answers. Asking myself whether have i ACTUALLY been in love, AM i in love, did he love me, all sorts of questions? So here I've actually gathered what i needed to know, what i should know and what you need to know as well.

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences associated to a sense of strong affection and attachment. The word love can be referred to a array of diverse feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that shoe") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my boyfriend"). This variety of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even contrasted to other emotional states.

Love is an exceptionally powerful emotion; it can be irresistible and people are often bound to pursue their love interests. Love is a major theme in literature, poetry, and film.
As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, indescribable feeling of affectionately caring for another person. Even this inadequate conception of love, however, includes a wealth of various feelings, from the avid desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love to the profound oneness or devotion of religion love.


So enough about the meanings and whatever. But how do you define love?

Some say it's mysterious, magical, complex, difficult, imaginary, thought-provoking, inspirational, intuitional, joyous, immeasurable, ecstasy, and indefinable. Perhaps. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13:5-7

Another is by Paramahansa Yogananda: "To describe love is very difficult, for the same reason that words cannot fully describe the flavor of an orange. You have to taste the fruit to know its flavor. So with love."

Love itself is a universal experience. Yet, every individual occurrence - while perhaps bound by a common thread - seems absolutely unique. Love is what love is! To everyone it expresses itself differently.

Love is the answer to "all" questions! It is important to stand in Love, not fall into it.
Love is waking up to find the object of your affection in the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder.

Could it be that Love is a story that can never be fully expressed? Love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly. - Sam Keen

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none. William Shakespeare

Love is a bond or connection between two people that results in trust, intimacy, and an interdependence that enhances both partners. Love is the ability and willingness to allow those you care for to be what they choose for themselves, without any insistence that they satisfy you. - Leo Buscaglia

Love is friendship set on fire. - Jeremy Taylor

If you would be loved, love and be lovable. - Benjamin Franklin

When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't Love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still Love you, they Love you even more. - Matthew - age 7

Logic says everything in this world has a cause and an effect. True Love is the only feeling which is its own cause and its own effect. It is something illogical and yet above all logic. I Love her because I Love her, and I Love her so I Love her. - Prateek Kumar Singh

Love is comforting someone in need of Love and having them know that somebody cares.
Love is looking past imperfections in your partner and seeing the beautiful person inside. True love seeks the happiness and well being of your partner. Love expresses itself in the mutual respect you demonstrate to your partner.

Guys, this one is for you! - Love is letting your partner have the TV remote for 30 days!

Love must be experienced. Its meaning is infinite and can never be totally defined.

The opposite of Love is fear. Think about it.

There is no fear in Love; but perfect love casts out fear.

Allah is love.

Love is loving someone without expecting anything in return; no judgments, no restrictions; no limitations; no expectations!

True Love is the nature of bliss.

Love is expressed when you are being someone who loves someone for who they are, not who you think they should be.

Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and taking equal responsibility for the results.

Love seeks no cause beyond itself and no fruit; it is its own fruit, its own enjoyment. I love because I love; I love in order that I may love. - St. Bernard 1090-1153, French Theologian and Reformer

Teach only Love for that is what you are. - A Course In Miracles
Love is a decision.

If you want Love, you must first Love. Love begets Love. You cannot deliver from an empty wagon. You must first learn to Love yourself before you can give Love.

"If you Loved me, you would. . ." Not! Love is not manipulative. It must never be used to get others to do what you want. When you Love someone you never ask them to sacrifice a part of themselves in the name of Love. This form of manipulation contaminates our Love for another.

Can't Buy Me Love! - The Beatles

Love is to like with a great intensity.True love has a foundation of integrity, respect, faith and trust. Love is the force that brings about unity and harmony.

Celebrate Love! - Larry James

Although love is at the root of our basic nature, Love for another human being must be cultivated. It takes time for Love to mature.

Is your love free and unconditional, or is it mixed with various needs, conditions and demands from your partner?

Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and take equal responsibility for the results. The road to self-discovery is paved with Love. Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it. - Martin Luther King, Jr.

Love has no meaning other than the meaning "we" give it. Perhaps. . . Love just Is. While in its allness and in its nothingness, all we need to do is simply let it Be.

To demonstrate Love. . . say, "I Love you" - outloud - at least once each day to someone you love. There is magic in these three little words. Saying "I love you" is the most beautiful gift you can give to your partner. These words are the most treasured a person can hear.

So here i am telling you that I love you. Yeah! YOU! You know who you are. I know you're going to miss my absence, my calls, my voice (pardon my high self-esteem) but i just want you to know that i love you.

Rainy days

Rain, rain go away

Come again another day

Sayangness just wants to play

Rain, rain go away...

Its raining, its pouring

The old man is snoring

He went and bumped his head

And couldn't get up in the morning...

It had been raining since last week till the weekends till this week. So blessed to have the rain since its "rahmat" from the Almighty. However, the temperature makes me oh-so-sleepy and lazy to just get off my bed and head to work or practically do anything at all. All i want to do is stay in my Pjs and polka dot socks, lazing around on my bed with a good book and my music player playing my fave songs. How's that?

But now i can just wish as there's tonnes of things that needs my attention as i'll be leaving for my UK/Eurotrip :) Hopefully, all goes well but who am i to say so since i have not even started packing. But ET told me to pack light since there'll be a whole lot of shopping involve when i'm there. Wait, how do you pack light when any random 2 day trip would involve a whole luggage? I'm such a lousy packer. Darn it! I know if he reads this he'll be nodding and laughing his heart out, but yes, i can't do it, so what?

Oh goodness.... *sigh*

Well, at least i had my flight tickets, train tickets and hotel booked. At least. So what's next?

Beautiful Mess

Beautiful mess or whatever else he calls me like Big Bird and Mok, he's just so mysterious and full of mysetery and deep words. Mind you, we are not really romantically dating just yet or are we? Let time tell as i would not want to jump head first again and hurt myself.

So at 8.36 am i was awaken by a text message saying "go listen to jason mraz's beautiful mess, its for you"

Oh great i thought, another clue to another puzzle.

I Youtube-d the song, listen to it over and over again and the meanings are still vague. Blame me for being slow early in the morning but i think i need that caffeine jerk so it'll boost up the cells to make my mind go faster and read between the lines. I don't know.

Well, i tried asking him for clues and answers but he just won't feed me with silverspoon. Darn! He's just like the professors in your university or college or classes,whatever who is just to selfish to let you get every other facts out of his mouth and demands you to search and rummage the whole campus library for answers. That's so Mr. Anonymous. Things just don't come so easily out of him, does it?

So please listen to the song, and if you've any clue please to not hesitate to break the code for me. Thank you! Really appreciate it if someone cares to help.

180km/h

I'm so getting summonses this month for drinving like a mad lady to and from Malacca last weekend to send lil sis back to her UITM di hatiku :) Well, this entry is not on the trip as there'll be another update on it, but it's just something sweet and funny from someone i call Rambutan Kuning or Yellow Rambutan because the red ones are just so easy to find, unlike yellow rambutans kuning and they're not too sweet but sweet and sour, so i can eat it as much as i like. And the flesh of the red rambutans are separated unlike the yellow ones. you know what i'm trying to deliver here? Yes? No? Whatever..so i love rambutan kuning.

Okay,back to the 180km/h. I was travelling alone from Malacca, no co-pilot just me, myself and I. Boring beyond words so that explains the speed. I'm not fond of slow driving, sorry. Okay, so i was driving at such speed while eating rambutans and replying text messages (yes i know its dangerous but what the hell!) and at a particular time i was texting my Yellow Rambutan. Here's a piece of the sweet and funny. Well, at least i smiled all the way. :)

Him: Dh ktne tu? i dh kt s.alam. u jgn sad ye,nnt we meet again
Her: Tg malim
Him: Jgn la jawab spatah2, we had so much fun together kan? Nnt we'll meet again kan? Jgn la cmni
Her: Sorry bwk 180
Him: Ktne dah?
Her: Taiping
Him: Lajuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu,,, careful
Her: Tu la bosan
Him: Ingat org yg tersayang... hati2 di jalanraya
Her: Sape ek???
Him: Cube ingat balik, sape yg syg u?
Her: Hmm die ade ckp td ke?
Him: Ade. Byk kali. Nk tau sape??? Saye la orgnye :)

At last the guy with great ego actually let out. Well, i can't blame anyone for this but i'm happy with the way it is now. i hope it goes a long way from here. XOXO

she's going home

She....

1. The person i eat with every meals
2. The person i laugh with
3. The person i shop with
4. The person who makes up my day
5. The person who understands me in and out
6. The person i love so much
7. The person who's everything to me

She's going back tomorrow. Better still i'm sending her off to Malacca. Yes... I know she's there to study, but i'll miss her most indefinitely. :(

I LOVE YOU ELLY!!!

To-do list

1. Hafidz andd Yana's wedding [done]
2. Genting family trip
3. Man U vs Malaysia
4. Loss of Mokut & Spot
5. Kak M's birthday
6. SR and Momo's engagement
7. chomel27's jazzy june update [done]
8. Aye & Ain's wedding
9. Eida's wedding
10. Emma's wedding
11. Filthy public
12. Autobots vs Decepticons
13. Zee Avi and Wani Ardy :)