london bridge is falling down

20th july 2009

Today i'll be leaving for London via AirAsia at 1600. Everyone was asking why i hadn't opted for MAS. Unless, someone's paying for me, thank you very much but i'm paying for my own vacation (trying to prove myself independent,somehow) so i chose to fly with AirAsia. At the Departure hall was Elly, Edros and I. It was too hard to leave them, but i am going on holidays, i'm coming back so i shouldn't be too sad, right?

To say the least, it was not a bad flight since it was a no frills, low cost carrier. So what more can you expect than to pay for everything else (comfort kit, entertainment and food). Talking about entertainment, i had all the fave songs in my Sony Mp3 to occupy me throughout my 13hours flight, but i just had to leave it somewhere at my cousins place before leaving. Darn!tBuy then again, I had no complaints, the Nasi Beriyani was good (hopefully my trainer,Gary doesnt read this) and given having a chatty person sitting next to me. It was my bad to have not got his name but i'm sure he was around my dad's age. He was nice. (Uncle whereever u are, it was nice to meet you)

After 5 hours of chatting, and 8 hours of i-don't-know-what (i had trouble sleeping despite being so sleepy, maybe it was the seat,maybe), i arrived at Standsted Airport, London at almost 11pm local time (7am Msia?) which to me looked like our LCCT but i think LCCT is waaaaayyy better. The line before the customs officer was so long and i had just enough time to inform my family about my arrival. Just did't want them to worry since i was travelling alone. But i just had to miss out the fact that i had not update my new number with international roaming. Again, some silly mistake! How am i suppose to inform Daing and Per upon my arrival? Ya Allah, please guide me.

After getting my luggage, i needed to get a bus (Note: Terravision) to Liverpool St. which is practically an hour ride from the airport to town and it only cost around 9pounds to get you there. (Yup its like RM54 in which you can get a return bus ticket to KL, but they say don't convert or you'll end up not eating) On the bus, i slept but only for a while because i was too scared i missed the stop and went to somewhere else. Thank Goodness the pretty Italian girl beside me was nice enough to start a conversation. When we were heat up, we practically conquered the whole bus. Apparently, Margherita de Gennaro was also on vacation with her also 18 yrs old boyfriend. She actually asked me to add her in Facebook! Believe it or not? It was hilarious.

When i arrived at Liverpool St., i was welcomed but my dear old friends Per, Daing and Cheh (i suppose that's his girlfriend cos they make a good couple). So thank goodness for the 2 heroes, they pushed my 23kg luggage back to Daing's place where Cheh made a good cup of Tea and served garlic bread and sambal ikan bilis which i had a few bites and Per practically licked the plates. He must've been very hungry. After a while chatting and i felt like getting some rest before my trip to Paris the next day. Because i was psyched and freezing, i could not sleep. So i went online and updated my Facebook. After a while my eyes were too tired to open, and i really need some shut eyes now.

See you later,in PARIS?!

LOVE is more than just a 4 letter word

A few days back as i was blog-hopping to my dearest friend Dirah's page, i was hooked with one piece she did about her love life (i love practically anything she blogs, yes Dirah, u are a great writer and i'm inspired. Remember our English classes together?) and smiled to myself knowing she was happy with herself in her own skin :) How lucky of her? Will i be lucky like her or anyone else?

Then, i kept questioning myself, what is love, actually? And started Google-ing, searching for answers. Asking myself whether have i ACTUALLY been in love, AM i in love, did he love me, all sorts of questions? So here I've actually gathered what i needed to know, what i should know and what you need to know as well.

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences associated to a sense of strong affection and attachment. The word love can be referred to a array of diverse feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that shoe") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my boyfriend"). This variety of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even contrasted to other emotional states.


Love is an exceptionally powerful emotion; it can be irresistible and people are often bound to pursue their love interests. Love is a major theme in literature, poetry, and film.
As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, indescribable feeling of affectionately caring for another person. Even this inadequate conception of love, however, includes a wealth of various feelings, from the avid desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love to the profound oneness or devotion of religion love.


So enough about the meanings and whatever. But how do you define love?

Some say it's mysterious, magical, complex, difficult, imaginary, thought-provoking, inspirational, intuitional, joyous, immeasurable, ecstasy, and indefinable. Perhaps. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13:5-7


Another is by Paramahansa Yogananda: "To describe love is very difficult, for the same reason that words cannot fully describe the flavor of an orange. You have to taste the fruit to know its flavor. So with love."


Love itself is a universal experience. Yet, every individual occurrence - while perhaps bound by a common thread - seems absolutely unique. Love is what love is! To everyone it expresses itself differently.

Love is the answer to "all" questions! It is important to stand in Love, not fall into it.
Love is waking up to find the object of your affection in the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder.

Could it be that Love is a story that can never be fully expressed? Love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly. - Sam Keen

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none. William Shakespeare

Love is a bond or connection between two people that results in trust, intimacy, and an interdependence that enhances both partners. Love is the ability and willingness to allow those you care for to be what they choose for themselves, without any insistence that they satisfy you. - Leo Buscaglia


Love is friendship set on fire. - Jeremy Taylor

If you would be loved, love and be lovable. - Benjamin Franklin

When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't Love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still Love you, they Love you even more. - Matthew - age 7

Logic says everything in this world has a cause and an effect. True Love is the only feeling which is its own cause and its own effect. It is something illogical and yet above all logic. I Love her because I Love her, and I Love her so I Love her. - Prateek Kumar Singh

Love is comforting someone in need of Love and having them know that somebody cares.
Love is looking past imperfections in your partner and seeing the beautiful person inside. True love seeks the happiness and well being of your partner. Love expresses itself in the mutual respect you demonstrate to your partner.

Guys, this one is for you! - Love is letting your partner have the TV remote for 30 days!

Love must be experienced. Its meaning is infinite and can never be totally defined.

The opposite of Love is fear. Think about it.

There is no fear in Love; but perfect love casts out fear.

Allah is love.

Love is loving someone without expecting anything in return; no judgments, no restrictions; no limitations; no expectations!

True Love is the nature of bliss.

Love is expressed when you are being someone who loves someone for who they are, not who you think they should be.

Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and taking equal responsibility for the results.

Love seeks no cause beyond itself and no fruit; it is its own fruit, its own enjoyment. I love because I love; I love in order that I may love. - St. Bernard 1090-1153, French Theologian and Reformer

Teach only Love for that is what you are. - A Course In Miracles
Love is a decision.

If you want Love, you must first Love. Love begets Love. You cannot deliver from an empty wagon. You must first learn to Love yourself before you can give Love.

"If you Loved me, you would. . ." Not! Love is not manipulative. It must never be used to get others to do what you want. When you Love someone you never ask them to sacrifice a part of themselves in the name of Love. This form of manipulation contaminates our Love for another.

Can't Buy Me Love! - The Beatles

Love is to like with a great intensity.True love has a foundation of integrity, respect, faith and trust. Love is the force that brings about unity and harmony.

Celebrate Love! - Larry James

Although love is at the root of our basic nature, Love for another human being must be cultivated. It takes time for Love to mature.

Is your love free and unconditional, or is it mixed with various needs, conditions and demands from your partner?

Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and take equal responsibility for the results. The road to self-discovery is paved with Love. Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it. - Martin Luther King, Jr.

Love has no meaning other than the meaning "we" give it. Perhaps. . . Love just Is. While in its allness and in its nothingness, all we need to do is simply let it Be.

To demonstrate Love. . . say, "I Love you" - outloud - at least once each day to someone you love. There is magic in these three little words. Saying "I love you" is the most beautiful gift you can give to your partner. These words are the most treasured a person can hear.

So here i am telling you that I love you. Yeah! YOU! You know who you are. I know you're going to miss my absence, my calls, my voice (pardon my high self-esteem) but i just want you to know that i love you.

My Current Headline says...

"A promise for us both to b happy and in love.Together forever till we're teethless n grey? In health and sickness? Rich or poor? To hold when we fall n support in being a better muslim, son/daughter, husband/wife, and mom/dad? To love in life n afterlife"

BADpacker

I've actually finished packing my stuffs to bring for my long trip at 2330 on thursday night. i should've got it done way earlier like Mr M said(in short for Mr Mystery) but being typical me, i would just "save the best for last".

Baju, check.
Toilettries,check.
Makeups, check.
Medicines and such, check.
Telekung, check.
PAssports n all, check.
Mr Mystery, .... nil

A lot of stuff were thrown into my luggage, almost the whole wardrobe. Well, that's if you consider 2weeks holiday is long bacause i need a lot so i wont buy much but knowing myself, i doubt that'll ever happen. What's important is i'm psyched for the vacation but at the same time, to be travelling alone, i should be prepared for a lot of situations. Let Allah lead my way and protect me from all harm. InsyaAllah.

Another reason to be excited about is that, on Saturday, i'll be amongst many Man.U fans to spectate the game with Malaysian FC. I just can't wait. However, being brokenhearted given CR7 actually went for another club (Real Madrid that is) and the whole point of going for the game was to actually brush shoulders with him was just a girl's dream. And that dream happened to be mine. But the problem lies in figuring out what to wear for the game. Jeans and Tee? Summer dress? i just dont know. It's not like you go for a football match to watch Man U's game everyday, y'know.

Well i guess i better stop before it goes on and on, endless. Nonetheless i need to get a very good rest as well as to avoid having eye bags. Nooooo...!

Sleep tight, sweat dreams my friends. :)

My Current Headline says...

"will be away starting monday. im gonna miss u, Mr Mystery..."

...and someone with a sweet reply said "You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. "

Can't it be much sweeter. Be careful, he's not Mr Mystery

LOVE is more than a 4 letter word

A few days back as i was blog-hopping to my dearest friend Dirah's page, i was hooked with one piece she did about her love life (i love practically anything she blogs, yes Dirah, u are a great writer and i'm inspired. Remember our English classes together?) and smiled to myself knowing she was happy with herself in her own skin :) How lucky of her? Will i be lucky like her or anyone else?

Then, i kept questioning myself, what is love, actually? And started Google-ing, searching for answers. Asking myself whether have i ACTUALLY been in love, AM i in love, did he love me, all sorts of questions? So here I've actually gathered what i needed to know, what i should know and what you need to know as well.

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences associated to a sense of strong affection and attachment. The word love can be referred to a array of diverse feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that shoe") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my boyfriend"). This variety of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even contrasted to other emotional states.

Love is an exceptionally powerful emotion; it can be irresistible and people are often bound to pursue their love interests. Love is a major theme in literature, poetry, and film.
As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, indescribable feeling of affectionately caring for another person. Even this inadequate conception of love, however, includes a wealth of various feelings, from the avid desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love to the profound oneness or devotion of religion love.


So enough about the meanings and whatever. But how do you define love?

Some say it's mysterious, magical, complex, difficult, imaginary, thought-provoking, inspirational, intuitional, joyous, immeasurable, ecstasy, and indefinable. Perhaps. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13:5-7

Another is by Paramahansa Yogananda: "To describe love is very difficult, for the same reason that words cannot fully describe the flavor of an orange. You have to taste the fruit to know its flavor. So with love."

Love itself is a universal experience. Yet, every individual occurrence - while perhaps bound by a common thread - seems absolutely unique. Love is what love is! To everyone it expresses itself differently.

Love is the answer to "all" questions! It is important to stand in Love, not fall into it.
Love is waking up to find the object of your affection in the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder.

Could it be that Love is a story that can never be fully expressed? Love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly. - Sam Keen

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none. William Shakespeare

Love is a bond or connection between two people that results in trust, intimacy, and an interdependence that enhances both partners. Love is the ability and willingness to allow those you care for to be what they choose for themselves, without any insistence that they satisfy you. - Leo Buscaglia

Love is friendship set on fire. - Jeremy Taylor

If you would be loved, love and be lovable. - Benjamin Franklin

When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't Love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still Love you, they Love you even more. - Matthew - age 7

Logic says everything in this world has a cause and an effect. True Love is the only feeling which is its own cause and its own effect. It is something illogical and yet above all logic. I Love her because I Love her, and I Love her so I Love her. - Prateek Kumar Singh

Love is comforting someone in need of Love and having them know that somebody cares.
Love is looking past imperfections in your partner and seeing the beautiful person inside. True love seeks the happiness and well being of your partner. Love expresses itself in the mutual respect you demonstrate to your partner.

Guys, this one is for you! - Love is letting your partner have the TV remote for 30 days!

Love must be experienced. Its meaning is infinite and can never be totally defined.

The opposite of Love is fear. Think about it.

There is no fear in Love; but perfect love casts out fear.

Allah is love.

Love is loving someone without expecting anything in return; no judgments, no restrictions; no limitations; no expectations!

True Love is the nature of bliss.

Love is expressed when you are being someone who loves someone for who they are, not who you think they should be.

Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and taking equal responsibility for the results.

Love seeks no cause beyond itself and no fruit; it is its own fruit, its own enjoyment. I love because I love; I love in order that I may love. - St. Bernard 1090-1153, French Theologian and Reformer

Teach only Love for that is what you are. - A Course In Miracles
Love is a decision.

If you want Love, you must first Love. Love begets Love. You cannot deliver from an empty wagon. You must first learn to Love yourself before you can give Love.

"If you Loved me, you would. . ." Not! Love is not manipulative. It must never be used to get others to do what you want. When you Love someone you never ask them to sacrifice a part of themselves in the name of Love. This form of manipulation contaminates our Love for another.

Can't Buy Me Love! - The Beatles

Love is to like with a great intensity.True love has a foundation of integrity, respect, faith and trust. Love is the force that brings about unity and harmony.

Celebrate Love! - Larry James

Although love is at the root of our basic nature, Love for another human being must be cultivated. It takes time for Love to mature.

Is your love free and unconditional, or is it mixed with various needs, conditions and demands from your partner?

Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and take equal responsibility for the results. The road to self-discovery is paved with Love. Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it. - Martin Luther King, Jr.

Love has no meaning other than the meaning "we" give it. Perhaps. . . Love just Is. While in its allness and in its nothingness, all we need to do is simply let it Be.

To demonstrate Love. . . say, "I Love you" - outloud - at least once each day to someone you love. There is magic in these three little words. Saying "I love you" is the most beautiful gift you can give to your partner. These words are the most treasured a person can hear.

So here i am telling you that I love you. Yeah! YOU! You know who you are. I know you're going to miss my absence, my calls, my voice (pardon my high self-esteem) but i just want you to know that i love you.

My current headline says

"you're not the missing piece in my heart, but you're the one holding it together"

Rainy days

Rain, rain go away

Come again another day

Sayangness just wants to play

Rain, rain go away...

Its raining, its pouring

The old man is snoring

He went and bumped his head

And couldn't get up in the morning...

It had been raining since last week till the weekends till this week. So blessed to have the rain since its "rahmat" from the Almighty. However, the temperature makes me oh-so-sleepy and lazy to just get off my bed and head to work or practically do anything at all. All i want to do is stay in my Pjs and polka dot socks, lazing around on my bed with a good book and my music player playing my fave songs. How's that?

But now i can just wish as there's tonnes of things that needs my attention as i'll be leaving for my UK/Eurotrip :) Hopefully, all goes well but who am i to say so since i have not even started packing. But ET told me to pack light since there'll be a whole lot of shopping involve when i'm there. Wait, how do you pack light when any random 2 day trip would involve a whole luggage? I'm such a lousy packer. Darn it! I know if he reads this he'll be nodding and laughing his heart out, but yes, i can't do it, so what?

Oh goodness.... *sigh*

Well, at least i had my flight tickets, train tickets and hotel booked. At least. So what's next?

Al Fatihah to Mohd Shahanoor

on the 12th of July 2009, a friend, Mohd Shahanoor had met an accident and unfortunately had passed away during the accident. He was a friend, a son, and a preson that will greatly be missed. Let us all say our prayers and may he'll be in peace amongst those of great iman. Al- Fatihah

Today

He said:

"Feel like talking but none of my words came out right

Feel like smiling but can't deny anymore

Feel like crying but no more tears to spare

Hands are holding on tight but its just too weak

When black is too black and colours are pale

Right now, i just hope that all of this will soon end

I don't want to talk to anyone, i really need some space"

I replied: *sigh*

My current headline says

"I became somebody through loving you"

Jackson memorial @ Yahoo! Video

Beautiful Mess

Beautiful mess or whatever else he calls me like Big Bird and Mok, he's just so mysterious and full of mysetery and deep words. Mind you, we are not really romantically dating just yet or are we? Let time tell as i would not want to jump head first again and hurt myself.

So at 8.36 am i was awaken by a text message saying "go listen to jason mraz's beautiful mess, its for you"

Oh great i thought, another clue to another puzzle.

I Youtube-d the song, listen to it over and over again and the meanings are still vague. Blame me for being slow early in the morning but i think i need that caffeine jerk so it'll boost up the cells to make my mind go faster and read between the lines. I don't know.

Well, i tried asking him for clues and answers but he just won't feed me with silverspoon. Darn! He's just like the professors in your university or college or classes,whatever who is just to selfish to let you get every other facts out of his mouth and demands you to search and rummage the whole campus library for answers. That's so Mr. Anonymous. Things just don't come so easily out of him, does it?

So please listen to the song, and if you've any clue please to not hesitate to break the code for me. Thank you! Really appreciate it if someone cares to help.

180km/h

I'm so getting summonses this month for drinving like a mad lady to and from Malacca last weekend to send lil sis back to her UITM di hatiku :) Well, this entry is not on the trip as there'll be another update on it, but it's just something sweet and funny from someone i call Rambutan Kuning or Yellow Rambutan because the red ones are just so easy to find, unlike yellow rambutans kuning and they're not too sweet but sweet and sour, so i can eat it as much as i like. And the flesh of the red rambutans are separated unlike the yellow ones. you know what i'm trying to deliver here? Yes? No? Whatever..so i love rambutan kuning.

Okay,back to the 180km/h. I was travelling alone from Malacca, no co-pilot just me, myself and I. Boring beyond words so that explains the speed. I'm not fond of slow driving, sorry. Okay, so i was driving at such speed while eating rambutans and replying text messages (yes i know its dangerous but what the hell!) and at a particular time i was texting my Yellow Rambutan. Here's a piece of the sweet and funny. Well, at least i smiled all the way. :)

Him: Dh ktne tu? i dh kt s.alam. u jgn sad ye,nnt we meet again
Her: Tg malim
Him: Jgn la jawab spatah2, we had so much fun together kan? Nnt we'll meet again kan? Jgn la cmni
Her: Sorry bwk 180
Him: Ktne dah?
Her: Taiping
Him: Lajuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu,,, careful
Her: Tu la bosan
Him: Ingat org yg tersayang... hati2 di jalanraya
Her: Sape ek???
Him: Cube ingat balik, sape yg syg u?
Her: Hmm die ade ckp td ke?
Him: Ade. Byk kali. Nk tau sape??? Saye la orgnye :)

At last the guy with great ego actually let out. Well, i can't blame anyone for this but i'm happy with the way it is now. i hope it goes a long way from here. XOXO

My Current Headline Says...

"I'm falling in deep, grab my hand or i'll fall in deeper"

she's going home

She....

1. The person i eat with every meals
2. The person i laugh with
3. The person i shop with
4. The person who makes up my day
5. The person who understands me in and out
6. The person i love so much
7. The person who's everything to me

She's going back tomorrow. Better still i'm sending her off to Malacca. Yes... I know she's there to study, but i'll miss her most indefinitely. :(

I LOVE YOU ELLY!!!

To-do list

1. Hafidz andd Yana's wedding [done]
2. Genting family trip
3. Man U vs Malaysia
4. Loss of Mokut & Spot
5. Kak M's birthday
6. SR and Momo's engagement
7. chomel27's jazzy june update [done]
8. Aye & Ain's wedding
9. Eida's wedding
10. Emma's wedding
11. Filthy public
12. Autobots vs Decepticons
13. Zee Avi and Wani Ardy :)

My current headline says...

"i'll go wherever you will go"